so i'm back in Melbourne.. yippieyeayyy :)

he n eva picked me up at the airport.. they were late for about 20 mins.. so i had to wait for 'em.. well it didn't really make much difference though cos we had to wait for alfa.. who was arriving at 10 am...

ahh it's so nice to be back here.. get to see him again!!! yeay yeay yeayyyyy hehehehe... oh i missed him lots

so this all coming back to melbourne trip has been pretty tiring.. the flight was quite bad.. got a quite bad seat.. damn the lady at the chcking-in counter in jkt.. she gave me a seat next to the plane's kitchen for the flight to melbourne.. and i was supposed to get an isle seat but.. the person who got the middle seat was a middle-aged ozie man.. who's kinda big-sized.. so he asked if i would change place with him.. well.. i didn't really mind.. so got da middle seat.. heh.. couldn't sleep on the plane.. which sucks big time.. and like.. every now n then the stewards/esses kept on going in n out of the kitchen.. so after lights off.. they had to keep on opening n closing the curtain.. and the noise they made.. and the light that's from the kitchen... bleah it's sooo annoying.. and.. the last one hour of the flight.. i was getting restless.. couldn't stop moving.. couldn't stop looking out the window... hoping the plane could just speed all the way to melbourne.. and i kept on looking at the screen, which they show the map of australia and the plane's route.. and i was like.. FASTER DAMN IT!!! i wanna get to melbourne now!!!! hahahah.. i was getting sick of the flight

and the jet-lag thingy was kinda affecting me as well..and the first couple of days after i arrived weren't that good.. it was really really HOT!!! like.. top of 41 deg! damn... it was really hot! thank god it's gone back to Melbourne's normal weather.. hehehe... so much better than a couple of days ago..

going out with him tomorrow.. yeay.. going to ikea is what i have in mind.. i wanna look for a tv bench thingy.. whatever you call it... and..for the rest of the day tomorrow.. i shall leave it to him and the others..

so it's tomorrow.. leaving for Melbourne tomorrow.. happy but sad at the same time.. half of me wants to stay.. half of me wants to leave.. haiz..

bro n sis-in-law came over for dinner.. and the thought that it would be the last time i'd eat Mum's cooking before leaving tomorrow striked me at dinner just now.. and is still haunting me.. sadness .. but of course that doesn't mean that it'd be the last dinner together forever.. there's always a next-time.. haiz..

anyways.. done with packing.. shouldn't be overweight.. the luggages i mean..cos i think it weighed more when i left melbourne... and i won't be bringing too many things anyway.. so should be orite..

Dad n Mum are sending me off to the airport tomorrow.. usual thing.. leaving Bandung for Jakarta at about 10 am.. this is what i don't like about living in Bandung... bleah.. we have to travel hours before the departure time .. cos we have to go to Jkt, which is.. about 4-hour drive from Bandung.. so hopefully eveything'll be orite tomorrow..

hmmm.. now where's he? i wanna talk to him

i've been complaining that i'm tired.. well i REALLY am

woke up this morning with a headache.. i thought i'd had enough sleep last night.. and till noon i still had the headache... wonder why...

went to the Thai Buddhist temple today... did a little bit of praying.. it's been some time since i went to a temple.. oh, i went to a temple with mum in singapore in december.. so it's not that long.. but eh, it's still quite some time..

i'm tired.. exhausted and really want to.. stay at home.. laze around.. just relax.. i know i know.. i've been complaining that i'm tired.. well i REALLY am.. i wish i could sleep for as long as i want! and.. when i wake up..i just sit down.. look around me without having to think of what's gonna happen next.. or.. what i'll have to do next.. just.. sit down.. not say a word.. and if there's anybody talking to me.. i'll just have to smile at them .. and they know what i'll say.. hahahahh that'd be cool, aye.. people don't have to say a word.. just by smiling.. waving.. or.. the look in the eyes.. and still we're able to communicate....

bleah.. okay i'm crapping too much..

zzZzzzzzZZZZZZZzzzzzz sleepy

raining now.. it's been sometime since it last rained at nite..

oh well.. i'm bored.. i wanna sleep.. but i'm too full.. i didn't wanna eat dinner actually.. but don't think dad will ever allow me skip my meals.. so there.. i'm FULL..(again)

zzZZzzzzzzZ wanna sleepzzZZzz..

missing him lots!! must be busy for his exam now.. the exam's on wednesday.. so.. good luck to you dear..

watched this new Chinese show.. just released in cinemas overseas..(got a pirated dvd of it :P) .. entitled Magic Kitchen.. supposedly it's a comedy.. romantic comedy.. but.. heh.. i was falling asleep while watching it..

and oh.. managed to get a Moulin Rouge dvd.. yiippiee yeay.. :) so.. hahah he's saying that we'll watch the movie together when i'm back in melbourne..

ahh i think i shall end up in da dreamland soon.. zzZzzzZ

sista's leaving for Shanghai tomorrow, immediately after work.. which means .. she won't come home before leaving for JKt.. to depart.. *sigh* so that means i'll have to get up early tomorrow.. to say bye with da sista.. cos she won't be back in indon when i'm leaving for melbourne.. sadness..

separation sucks

so.. today.. i met his parents.... they are nice people..really.. heheheh to think that i had butterflies in my stomach yesterday just thinking of meeting the parents

and i think he looks more like his father.. heh.. how his father looks is really out of my expectation.. i was quite surprised when his dad first came out of the door... as for the mother, i've seen a picture of her so i somewhat still remember how she looks..

hahah and his dad asked me to tell him to study hard.. so as not to waste another semester.. hehehhe

oh well.. i'm tired now... went to BSM.. it stands for Bandung Supermall.. got myself a new cd.. MTV gress..indon songs.. don't know when the last time i bought one... so.. yippie yeayy :P

aights.. shall take a shower soon..

heh.. i'm full.. very very full.. Mum cooked chilly crab for dinner.. and there was lotsa food.. but the thought of food kinda makes me wanna puke now coz.. i'm FULL!!!

oh..sista's going for a business trip to china on monday and she'll be away for at least 5 days.. which means i won't see her when i go off to melbourne.. sadness..

oh well..

ahh.. tomorrow.. eeeksss.. i have to go to his parents' place in bandung... just thinking of it already makes me wanna puke.. i really don't like this.. *sighs*
and.. hahaha he's trying to convince me that his parents are nice.. and stuffs like that.. okay.. it ain't just that dear.. it's more than you think

heh.. ok ok.. other thoughts.. other happy.. silly thoughts.. i need something to make me think of other stuffs..

tired.. i'm exhausted.. and my back is aching as usual.. and.. i feel something's wrong with my stomach.. bleah.. problems with stomach too full!

okay.. i wanna watch tv...at least it's betta than thinking of what it's gonna be like tomorrow.. heh

heh.. i don't wanna go back to melbourne!! this coming thursday is too soon!!

all's mixed up.. i wanna go back to melbourne.. yet i don't want.. i want to fast forward the time if possible.. at the same time i want to stop the time.. so i can cherish every moment here..

this always happens.. and when i think of it.. i can't help but to cry.. :(

i'm very lame i know..

the thing i don't like most is.. when i have to say byes.. takecares.. and parents have to say.. take care.. study hard and stuffs like that.. and that's when i can't help but burst into tears..

bleah.. i hate separation..

errr butterflies in my stomach.. all thanks to the phone call.. nopes nopes.. it's not from him.. but it's from HIS DAD.. yeps.. see his dad ask me to pass his new handphone to him.. and so his dad called to confirm when and where to meet...heh.. it was like an hour ago.. but i still can't get those butterflies out of my stomach..

eh.. he likes Moulin Rouge too!! teehheee (^^,) he was telling me that at work last nite.. he and his colleagues listened to the radio and they were playing the oldies.. and one of the songs was the original version of "elephat love medley'.. the one with the.. ~all you need is lovveee~ that song.. yeah.. and then he went on how he and his colleague used to sing that song... and.. then he told me that he loves that movie.. so there.. he loves Moulin Rouge.. :D

and.. what a coincidence.. these couple of weeks.. i've been listening to the sountracks.. Moulin Rouge OSTs.. hehehe oh well.. i'm gonna get the dvd.. hehehe.. oh and i think they're gonna show it on tv on wednesday.. so there.. everything now is Moulin Rouge-ish.. heheh

ok the call from his dad is driving me nuts.. bleah

~suddenly the world seems such a perfect place..
suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace...
suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste..
coz i love you..until the end of time...~

ooo i love this song.. Come What May by Ewan McGregor n Nicole Kidman

ahhh love him .. yes yes i love him and i miss him lots

sorry about the other night dear..

~and there's no mountain too high no river too wide
sing out this song and i'll be there by your side~

silent treatment.. bleah

~catch a falling star and put it in your pocket... never let it fade away

catch a falling star and put it in your pocket... save it for a rainy day~

keep on singing that song.. to make me happy!! need something to cheer me up

ahh Kel's back from KL.. hehehe.. somehow.. i feel there's someone to talk to when she's around :)

okay dad's annoying me.. AGAIN! why does he always ask me to go out when i want to stay at home??? and always blames himself that i'm stuck at home.. like what the?? I WANT TO STAY AT HOME!!! and cherish my last few days here!!!!!!

that's the thing about guys.. you can think of all things you wanna think about me.. me being selfish.. bitchy girl who thinks of me me me n only me.. but please!!!!!! spare me a moment and let me do what i want to do

okay mum asked lotsa things about him.. and told me lotsa things too.. oh well Mum will always be mum.. oh but I LOVE HER! :)

ah..and the sistas are gone to work.. alfred's back to singapore as well.. the house is so quiet.. back to normal i should say.. kinda like it this way..

11 more days..

ahh so fast?? okay.. i'm dreading to go back to melb now.. i don't know why.. guess that's the syndrome.. and esp now to see my dad like that.. and knowing that mum will be alone during the day with dad.. cos 2 sistas are working.. i'm really worried about her safety.. okay.. not that i'm thinking my dad is a criminal whatsoeva.. but.. he can always do anything to abuse her.. I AM REALLY WORRIED..

so i asked her to go to singapore for the mean time.. like when i leave for melbourne.. she leaves for singapore.. but she doesn't want that.. she said it's just like escaping from reality.. and not helping my dad's condition.. ARGH! damn.. why is he like that?? so evil you know.. i don't like it..

bleah..

all i can do now is just to pray for mum's safety.. and hope dad recovers soon..

... haiz... sickness strikes again.. bleah.. diarrhea.. (correct spelling?) .. i feel soooooo lethargic now.. forced myself to eat something just now.. didn't eat last nite.. this morning.. i only ate bananas.. so.. uncomfortable.. haiz

home alone now.. dad n ci aida's sending ci nova to jkt.. she n the family's going back to singapore this afternoon.. and mum n ci hana's gone to a wedding reception.. mum just called.. telling me that she's going to diaz.. the shop selling bags.... ahhhh i want to go too!!!!! there's this bag that i fell for it from the first sight.. hahah oh well.. haizzzzzzzzzzzzz

tired.. lethargic.. headache.. bleah